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okteiviakom) wrote2021-07-23 01:23 pm
okteiviakom) wrote2021-07-23 01:23 pm
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Lux, Los Angeles, Friday Morning
Tonight, Lux was going to be packed and loud again, but this early on a Friday morning, the club wasn't only quiet but deserted. Which made it the perfect place for Octavia to sneak down to for her therapy. In previous weeks, she'd usually just gone out on Lucifer's balcony and kept her voice down for these Friday sessions that happened before neither Duke nor Lucifer tended to even be up yet, but this week...
This had seemed more right. Taking over the empty club, sitting at the grand piano with her phone.
Not that that had made her feel like she could be much more open with her therapist than she had in the last couple of weeks. Until this trip, she hadn't felt much reason to censor what she told Dr. Baker, but there was something about having to talk about God messing up your relationship that she didn't entirely want to get into. Not quite at that level, anyway.
In the end, in this particular session, she largely just ended up venting about love (sometimes it just feels like putting a name on things just makes it more complicated) and rejection (I swear he asked me that ten years ago, and now I'm right back here again) and loss (just feels like something's ending, and I should be able to stop it, but he just keeps looking at me like--).
And once her hour was up, she... stayed where she was. Closed the video chat app, opened a browser.
Looked up Portalocity.
Looked at portals to Fandom.
And wished for a vacation.
[ooc: Open for texts, calls, and those that are here if they so wish.]
This had seemed more right. Taking over the empty club, sitting at the grand piano with her phone.
Not that that had made her feel like she could be much more open with her therapist than she had in the last couple of weeks. Until this trip, she hadn't felt much reason to censor what she told Dr. Baker, but there was something about having to talk about God messing up your relationship that she didn't entirely want to get into. Not quite at that level, anyway.
In the end, in this particular session, she largely just ended up venting about love (sometimes it just feels like putting a name on things just makes it more complicated) and rejection (I swear he asked me that ten years ago, and now I'm right back here again) and loss (just feels like something's ending, and I should be able to stop it, but he just keeps looking at me like--).
And once her hour was up, she... stayed where she was. Closed the video chat app, opened a browser.
Looked up Portalocity.
Looked at portals to Fandom.
And wished for a vacation.
[ooc: Open for texts, calls, and those that are here if they so wish.]