okteiviakom: ([neg] worried about you)
Octavia Blake ([personal profile] okteiviakom) wrote2020-06-22 09:19 pm

The Cape Rouge, Port of Fandom, Monday Morning

Duke was out for his class thing. Octavia wasn't sure for how long, but she was taking a chance, and so she sat at the table in the galley with two things in front of her. One, the phone Duke had given her after she'd shown up. Two, the locket Niylah had made her in the bunker. She'd finally opened it. Taken out the SIM card, and carefully, almost hesitantly put it in the phone.

She was honestly surprised to find it still worked. As soon as she turned the phone on, the notifications poured in. Texts, voicemails, missed calls. Almost all of them from Duke.

For a moment, Octavia just stared at them. And considered just deleting them all without looking.

But when had she last made a sensible choice like that? So instead, she went through the texts, from the selfies with goats through the increasingly worried questions, all the way down to just a picture of the ocean meeting the sky, with no caption, no words attached. She checked the date. A day, two days before she'd come back.

Then she moved on to the voicemails. "You missed lunch. You're not at the flower shop." The texts hadn't been easy, but at least they were short, quick to get through - a little more distant than the voicemails. They were his voice but not his voice.

(And then there was a voicemail that wasn't from Duke -- "So if you don't mind, I think it's time to come out of hiding." -- and that was its own kind of tangled emotion.)

"What's the point of anything if you can just go away? Fuck!" The texts hadn't had the sounds of glass breaking. None of Duke's shaky breaths. "I was and am very fucked up, and people need to stop asking me how I'm doing before I start stabbing them with your sword." She wanted to stop listening. But she also didn't want to miss even a second. All those years of wanting to talk to him, and he'd been talking to her, and his voice was -- "It's okay, you know. If you come back broken."

She wanted to stop listening.

She didn't. There was just one more voicemail left.

"Someday, we'll both be butterflies. And then we'll both be sharks. And then something else we haven't even dreamed of yet, but -- we'll find each other."

She'd just... sit here and let that last one loop a few times.

(Too many times.)

[ooc: Open, but angsty. Duh.]
betterthanaplan: (shiny hair and concern)

[personal profile] betterthanaplan 2020-06-23 07:10 pm (UTC)(link)
"Alright." Duke nodded and flashed her a little smile. "Do you want to put something else in it, instead?"

Not that she'd had much -- or anything -- else on her when she'd gotten back.
betterthanaplan: (*shrug*)

[personal profile] betterthanaplan 2020-06-23 07:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Duke nodded. And tried to remember if he knew what Arkadia was.

"It sounds like she was a good friend."
betterthanaplan: (let's think this through)

[personal profile] betterthanaplan 2020-06-23 07:49 pm (UTC)(link)
“You kept a piece of Fandom inside a piece of the Ark,” Duke said. “And kept them both close enough not to leave them behind when Fandom pulled you back.”
betterthanaplan: (a nice smile)

[personal profile] betterthanaplan 2020-06-23 08:07 pm (UTC)(link)
"Things are just -- things," Duke said, shaking his head. "Most of them can be replaced." He reached for her hand. "I'm just glad you're back." He gave her a little smile. "I got pretty tired of talking into thin air."
betterthanaplan: (gonna lose it)

[personal profile] betterthanaplan 2020-06-23 08:52 pm (UTC)(link)
How many people in the bunker had been actively trying to get her to talk about her feelings? Or let her be her instead of who they wanted her to be?

"Kind of wish I could stick a new card in my phone and hear what you wanted to tell me," Duke said, rubbing his free hand over his mouth. "Though -- from the look on your face when I came in, being able to hear mine didn't really make you feel any better."
betterthanaplan: (concerned in profile)

[personal profile] betterthanaplan 2020-06-23 09:09 pm (UTC)(link)
"I want to know everything," Duke said softly. "But I know I probably never will. And -- and that's okay."

He was saying that half to convince himself. But he meant it. He would make it be okay if he had to.
betterthanaplan: (shiny hair and concern)

[personal profile] betterthanaplan 2020-06-23 09:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Duke looked up and watched her back, keeping his expression as open and undemanding as possible. Trying to be patient.

He was good at patient. Normally, anyway. It was a lot harder right now than he thought it should have been.
betterthanaplan: (shiny hair and concern)

[personal profile] betterthanaplan 2020-06-23 09:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Duke didn't move, except to watch her move. He couldn't. He worried if he did, he'd spook her, lose her trust.

That she'd disappear in a puff of smoke.
betterthanaplan: (lovey-dovey)

[personal profile] betterthanaplan 2020-06-23 09:58 pm (UTC)(link)
That meant she'd be able to feel it when Duke let out a shaky, relieved breath. His own arm came up almost as hesitantly, resting lightly along her shoulders.
betterthanaplan: (tears for fears)

[personal profile] betterthanaplan 2020-06-23 10:01 pm (UTC)(link)
"No," Duke said, his voice just a little bit wet. "But I might."

He'd missed this. So much. If he didn't take it slow, he might just grab onto her and never let go.
betterthanaplan: (pretty boy)

[personal profile] betterthanaplan 2020-06-23 10:11 pm (UTC)(link)
Duke looked at her, arm tightening just a little.

His eyes were definitely not dry.
betterthanaplan: (height difference kink)

[personal profile] betterthanaplan 2020-06-23 10:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Duke let out a soft laugh and tilted his head down to meet hers.

"I hope that means what I think it means."
betterthanaplan: (touching foreheads)

[personal profile] betterthanaplan 2020-06-23 10:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Duke nodded, his forehead still pressed to hers. He’d hoped it was that, and not “I don’t remember you crying this much.”

“I want to kiss you.”

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