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Octavia Blake ([personal profile] okteiviakom) wrote2017-07-02 07:07 pm

MCA #9, So Early Sunday Morning It's Practically Still Saturday

Octavia should've probably expected this. So far, her nights had been ones of dreamless, exhausted sleep. But nothing lasted forever, especially once the initial shock of being here instead of there wore off.

They were relatively simple images. It was Helios, galloping in a wild panic through the woods. It was Indra, being killed in battle.

It was Lincoln, suffering Death by a Thousand Cuts.

She woke up crying. It took her by such a surprise that it took her a moment to realize she was also close to hyperventilating, and she sat up on the couch, trying to get herself under control. Trying to breathe and trying to stop crying.

Or at least trying to keep herself quiet. But it wasn't going very well.

[ooc: For that guy that lives here.]
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-02 05:13 pm (UTC)(link)
At first, he thought it was a dream. He heard screaming there all the time, screaming from Clarke, from Octavia, from Raven, from everyone. They screamed and he reached but he never got to them.

But he realized this screaming was different. It was closer. He shot up out of bed, disoriented and frozen. When he realized it was Octavia screaming, he finally got himself moving, sleep slow and rubbing at his eyes.

"Octavia," he mumbled, moving into her room. "Octavia, what's wrong?"
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-02 05:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Bellamy glared at her before disappearing. He wasn't going back to bed, though. In fact, he was grabbing some toilet tissue and reappearing to pass it to her before sitting down on the bed.

"No." He shook his head. "I wasn't sleeping well anyway."
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-02 07:40 pm (UTC)(link)
"Is there a reason why you're lying to me?" Bellamy asked, frowning. "And don't say you're not lying, we both know you are."
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-02 08:28 pm (UTC)(link)
"Okay." He nodded once. "It's not your fault. Coming here, it's not stoppable. I don't know how but it's not your fault, O. You gotta realize that."
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-02 08:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Scowling, Bellamy wanted to yell at her, to tell her that he would understand. That he'd been here for over a year so he knew all too well what it felt like.

He reigned himself in and took a breath. "I'm sorry. What happened?"
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-02 08:46 pm (UTC)(link)
"Octavia," he said, frowning. "You woke up screaming. You're still crying. Tell me what's wrong. Please."
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-02 08:50 pm (UTC)(link)
"Is that all of it?" Bellamy asked, raising an eyebrow. "You loved him."

He could guess who the 'him' was.

"But, what else?"
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-02 08:57 pm (UTC)(link)
"I'm not saying it like it's nothing," Bellamy said, shaking his head. "I just don't know how else to say it! I haven't been around. I don't know what's going on and I'm trying to understand. Cut me a break. I'm trying."
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-02 10:00 pm (UTC)(link)
"A Grounder?: Bellamy repeated, eyes widening. "O, that's...that's different."
Edited 2017-07-02 22:00 (UTC)
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-03 03:25 pm (UTC)(link)
"How did that happen?" Bellamy asked her quietly. "The last time I saw you, that wasn't really a thing. I've been gone awhile. Fill me in."
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-03 08:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Bellamy took a breath and nodded. There was something rankling him about this, about what she was saying. He wanted to be pissy about her sounding like she was blaming him but he held himself back.

"It was hard to tell enemy from friend those first few days," he said. "Mistakes were made."
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-03 10:07 pm (UTC)(link)
Bellamy held back his obvious question on if she was okay. Physically, she was because she was here but he didn't want her to send him another withering look.

"Why did they attack us?" Bellamy asked. "Because of what happened with the Grounder?"
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-04 03:38 pm (UTC)(link)
"A few of those things couldn't be helped. Weren't our fault," Bellamy said with a sigh. "But I can see how it might piss people off. For what it's worth, I wish it hadn't happened like that. Probably could have been done better."
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-04 05:19 pm (UTC)(link)
"No, I didn't know. That's why I'm asking you," Bellamy said, sighing. "I'm sorry all that shit happened. I'm sorry I wasn't there"
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-04 06:51 pm (UTC)(link)
"You are," Bellamy said, nodding. "Should try and get some sleep. It's still early. Plenty of time before the sun comes up."
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-04 07:17 pm (UTC)(link)
"You know this place well enough to not get lost?" Bellamy asked, eyeing her skeptically.
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-04 07:28 pm (UTC)(link)
"Just don't go for a swim," Bellamy teased lightly. "Do you know how to swim? I don't think they have lifeguards out there and I'm too tired to come out and save you."
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-04 08:18 pm (UTC)(link)
"Do you need a phone?" Bellamy asked her, tilting his head and curling his fingers around hers. "I can let you use mine."
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-04 08:32 pm (UTC)(link)
"Take pictures?" Bellamy shrugged. "It would make me feel better if you took it with you, okay?"
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-04 08:40 pm (UTC)(link)
"I know," Bellamy said even if he thought otherwise. "I'm not going to go with you. You can do it on your own. See, not protecting you."
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-04 09:43 pm (UTC)(link)
"Thanks but I think I wanna sleep," he said, shrugging. "I don't know if I'd be any good walking around this early. Gotten a little soft now that they've given me a bed and stuff."
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[personal profile] notgetkilled 2017-07-05 02:30 pm (UTC)(link)
"Okay," Bellamy said, ignoring her judging looks and getting to his feet. "Don't stay out too long."